Sunday, September 27, 2009

Missing My Mother



Today is the 6 month anniversary of my Mother's passing. In some ways I have overcome the shock and disbelief of her death. Still, sometimes I can't believe she is gone! She was so much a part of my life and my girl's lives. It is hard to adjust to life without her. I still cry for her a lot. She was my best friend and I miss talking to her! She was so involved in my life and my girl's lives. She was always there for me in good times and bad. I miss asking her for advice and counsel. She was very close to my girls and they still talk about her all the time. Ashley cried for her the other day. She told me that she needed her Grandma Shaw. What a wonderful and loving influence she has had on my kids! I thank Heavenly Father every day for sending me to my Mother!
I wanted to share a song by the christian group "Mercy Me". I love this group and I have always loved this song, but it has more meaning to me now that my Mother has passed. My girls and I listen to it a lot and it always makes me cry now, because it has such meaning in my life. You can also scroll down and listen to it on my playlist.

" Homesick"

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

The last picture taken of my Mother-Feb. 2009 (Her 65th b-day)


4 comments:

The Peay Family said...

Love the song. A nice tribute to your mom!

Amy said...

The song says it all!

JennyLyn said...

It is amazing how fast the years pass! I love the picture of you and your Mother!!

Kaye and Mike said...

Very beautiful tribute to your mother. You will miss her here but you have the knowledge that you will see her again.